1 And now, behold, my beloved brethren, I suppose that ye ponder somewhat in your hearts concerning that which ye should do after ye have entered in by the way. But, behold, why do ye ponder these things in your hearts? [That was my first question after I had my baptism of fire and gift of the Holy Ghost.]
2 Do ye not remember that I said unto you that after ye had received the Holy Ghost ye could speak with the tongue of angels? And now, how could ye speak with the tongue of angels save it were by the Holy Ghost? [To speak with the tongue of angels is to be overcome by the Spirit and to speak the words given to you. This can be in the form of prophecy, tongues, and revelation. It is a beautiful experience.]
3 Angels speak by the power of the Holy Ghost; wherefore, they speak the words of Christ. Wherefore, I said unto you, feast upon the words of Christ; for behold, the words of Christ will tell you all things what ye should do. [This is a critical point to consider. The Lord will give you exactly what you need to do next to draw closer to Him and be a servant. What are the “words of Christ” that you are to feast upon? They are all communications from Him. This comes in the form of revelation received by prayer, scripture, or other people. This is the “word of God” as defined by the “rod of iron” that Nephi saw leading to the Tree of Life. You will reach it eventually.]
After I had my gift of the Holy Ghost given, having asked the Lord, “What Next?,” I was led to do many unconventional things. Six months later this culminated in my Second Comforter experience. Each of our paths will be different, but you must rely upon revelation to be led to do exactly what the Lord has for you.
4 Wherefore, now after I have spoken these words, if ye cannot understand them it will be because ye ask not, neither do ye knock; wherefore, ye are not brought into the light, but must perish in the dark. [You should tape these words next to your bed. There is much that we do not understand, yet God will give you answers to your prayers and lead you to what you need as fast as possible. There is a law in Heaven called, “The Law of Asking.” You must ask in faith (Seek revelation and act upon it.)]
5 For behold, again I say unto you that if ye will enter in by the way, and receive the Holy Ghost, it will show unto you all things what ye should do. [What a beautiful promise!]
6 Behold, this is the doctrine of Christ, and there will be no more doctrine given until after he shall manifest himself unto you in the flesh. And when he shall manifest himself unto you in the flesh, the things which he shall say unto you shall ye observe to do. [This scripture is confused by many to mean when they have their Second Comforter. It is referring to receiving their gift of the Holy Ghost. Until that time comes we are only to receive the Doctrine of Christ. At that critical juncture we literally have Christ’s Atonement manifest to us while in our mortal bodies (the flesh). After this occurs, Nephi reminds us that the Lord will show us all things that we need to observe to do going forward.]
7 And now I, Nephi, cannot say more; the Spirit stoppeth mine utterance, [I can relate to that. These were the words the Lord said to me when I asked, “How will I know if I am saying too much in my writing? When I’ve been stopped it feels like He literally shuts my mouth or contains me.] and I am left to mourn because of the unbelief, and the wickedness, and the ignorance, and the stiffneckedness of men; for they will not search knowledge, nor understand great knowledge, when it is given unto them in plainness, even as plain as word can be.
It is a lonely and difficult feeling to watch so many wandering in their search for God when He is standing at the gate inviting them. The reason He is not seen by many is that people are rigid in their views of Christ, and have false traditions that bind them from coming to Him. How does the Lord compensate for this? He sends prophets to teach. He has His words written to be studied and prayed upon. When things become horribly wicked He humbles the people by allowing wars, famine, or disasters to shake them. His mercy is always extended until the day that the earth is finished. Unfortunately, mostly the Elect are the only ones to listen. These are those whose hearts were prepared before they came to mortality having made the covenant with God beforehand to receive Him in this life.
8 And now, my beloved brethren, I perceive that ye ponder still in your hearts; and it grieveth me that I must speak concerning this thing. For if ye would hearken unto the Spirit which teacheth a man to pray, ye would know that ye must pray; for the evil spirit teacheth not a man to pray, but teacheth him that he must not pray. [Are you pondering in your heart, “What should I do now?” The answer is to pray to the Lord. Ask Him, “Father, what next? How can I make the straight line to thee? Please, remove my stumbling blocks and show me. I will give all that I have to know thee and be thy servant. I love you more that anything in my life!]
9 But behold, I say unto you that ye must pray always, and not faint [give up]; that ye must not perform any thing unto the Lord save in the first place ye shall pray unto the Father in the name of Christ, that he will consecrate thy performance unto thee, that thy performance may be for the welfare of thy soul. [Anything that you do as a servant of the Lord must first be given as permission by the Spirit so that it is consecrated by Him. This is true in all your actions taken to know Him better, your attempt to seek Him, even the questions you ask. I always seek the Lord’s Spirit in even writing down the questions I will ask during my holy time. I don’t just throw random questions when I’m with Him (Except for that one about His beard.) Also, I always check before I give a blessing, healing, speak in His name, write, and do anything that I believe has relevance to being a servant of God. I carry a prayer in my heart all day, which means that I do my best to carry the Spirit with me, in thanksgiving, as I am sensitive to any communication I receive from the Lord. I call out to Him all day long in my mind or vocally. What a beautiful journey!]
I should say, after we receive such great blessings, life is still hard, challenging, and at times you want to collapse. Its hard to be 100% with it all the time. We must continue to repent and seek Him. The Lord understands. I have many times in my experiences with Him expressed my sorrow at not being more strong or coming to Him more often. He smiles, expresses His love to me and encourages me to keep going. The big question to consider is “What is the desire of your heart?’ This will lead to all blessings for you.