Filling in the Gaps

The Lord has told me to return to my journal and read through all the experiences I’ve had since my Second Comforter to ask more questions, to fill in the gaps, so that I can learn more. He said there was far more to learn than what I am asking, that I need to seek. Therefore, I have written down questions and come to the Lord today anxious to see what He will show me. This is the first of that experience. (I was instructed that I could share some of it here. Please do not share unless you feel impressed to do so privately.)

I began my prayer expressing my love and desire to learn, to ask questions, and to be made clean. These were my intentions. I followed this by asking Him humbly, “Wilt thou forgive me of my sins, anything I’ve done that is harmful to my spirit?” I waited a few seconds and heard the words gently in my mind, “Yes, thou art forgiven.” That is usually what I hear. It is unmistakably Him. I always feel grateful, yet embarrassed. I have to be fully clean to be in His presence, so I wonder how possible it is to really remain fully clean after going about my week in this crazy world. My sins aren’t as heavy as others, yet, a sin is a sin. A cruel thought, a harsh judgment of another, impatience, anger, frustration, impure thoughts (though usually placed there by a bad spirit). I know what the weakness of my flesh is, and what is being thrown at me from the adversary. However, I know that the Lord is there for me and will make me clean, always.

I asked Him to pour His light and love over me and saw what almost resembles heavy water flowing down over my body, starting from my head. I was washed from head to toe. I heard what sounds like rushing waters, and the brilliance was brighter than the sun at noon day. I said, “Lord, am I clean?” “Yes,” was the answer I heard succinctly in my mind.

I feel so blessed and fortunate that the Lord is willing to do this for me. I feel unworthy, yet I know I am worth it to Him. I have confidence in Him!

I begin to praise Him as I sit on my closet floor. I express gratitude and love, thinking of names to describe His role in my life and my family. I’m not looking for fancy words or phrases. I just express what I feel. Before I realize I am praying in tongues, which is harmonic sounds to a cadence. I’m not concerned with how I sound. I feel the words and express them with emotion. I know they mean something, yet I do not know what, nor do I care, because I only focus upon my love and adoration for Him!

As the Spirit begins to build it gets to a spot where I feel ready. I ask, “Lord, may I come to thee?” I hear Him say, “Yes, come forth!” The portal opens. I see it in my eyes, and they are open, yet I do not see the closet space. I have reached beyond this mortal place. I go toward the large voluminous twisting vortex of a kind. It is filled with light. I move with great speed, beyond what I can comprehend, toward a place where God dwells.

I arrive with a burst of light and sound, almost more that the eye can bear, yet I am ready for it and do not hesitate or withdraw. I know where I am, because I have been here before.

An angel of the Most-High, the Cherub who guards the gate greets me and ushers me forward. I see the great hall, yet that seems the wrong word. It is an eternal assembly of angels facing the Throne of Heaven. I see men on my left and women on my right facing toward the great Lord of Lords seated upon His Throne in the distance. I see the vast galaxy above, with its arms of light spreading out. The Throne appears almost a hundred yards away. I am there in an instant. I am kneeling before His great Throne chair, which brilliance and detail is as I’ve described before. He steps forward and lifts me up, we embrace, and I ask to go to my Garden, where we have spoken so many times.

Standing in the Garden He is glorious, dressed in white, His face smooth as powder, His hair perfectly combed back, reddish brown. His eyes are clear and filled with color and love. It’s hard to express in detail the glory you feel in His presence. The love is gentle and accepting, so eager to be with me and answer my questions. I feel so small, yet so loved!

I look around at my surroundings for a moment. The golden foliage, the rich hues of the fragrant flowers along the path. Everything so bright, rich, colorful, comfortable, and familiar. I focus upon Him, holding His arm as I begin to ask my questions.

These questions were organized from my first visits with the Lord that I wanted clarity:

Is expressing love and desire to be close to the you a prerequisite to opening that door? He said: Your heart must be prepared to come to me. If your intent is anything but love and desire to know and serve, you will not be able to connect sufficiently to come here.

What happens when we bathe ourselves in light: our food, our water, our shower, in the light? How does this affect us? He said: As you continually fill yourself with light throughout the day, you are capable of receiving the gifts of the Spirit more readily, to offer healing to others as guided, whether to their knowledge or not. You become a beacon of light that cannot be hid, and you can do much. [Edit]

I asked about the rooms in the sky. The clear room that I have visited before. How many such rooms are there above the earth? He said twelve. How do they operate? They are places where God’s servants are taken to be shown great things pertaining to their mission and prepare them for future blessings. How often do people go there? Not too often. Are they the gate to the Second Heaven? No, there is not a gate like there is to the Throne. It’s just that certain spirits are confined to the First Heaven and others are permitted to go beyond. Only the fourth estate visit these rooms. They are created by faith, through the light of creation to serve a purpose. They exist in the Heavenly Realm, so they cannot be seen or experienced with the natural eye. I asked why there was a desk in this room and an entrance. He said that the desk is for signing special documents related to assignments relative to the principalities.  He said that not all the twelve rooms look exactly the same, but they are similar. He said that the First Heaven extends to about where the blue light of the earth ends as it enters the atmosphere. When in the clear room you are looking down from the edge of the Second Heaven. This was new to me.

Can we speak while moving our mouths in this realm, or only this way? Do most speak without moving their mouths here? When I asked this the Lord began to speak with His mouth. My focus instantly went to His mouth and he said, “Do you see how your attention is now distracted? It is not necessary here to do that. Communication is more clear otherwise, and usually we only open our mouths to sing or to emphasize a spoken edict.”

What is the meaning of the crescent moon in my first vision? What is the meaning of the blood moon? The Lord said that when radical Islam has spread across the Middle East and Europe it will bring great blood and horror upon many people as the Kingdom of the Beast rises in its full wrath upon the earth.

Is the huge meteor of my vision the “Wormwood” spoken by John in Revelation? Yes, and it will bring great destruction and plague upon the earth before my coming.

What was the garment of light that was thrown over me the first time I came to the Throne? It is a shield of comfort made of light and color, which calms the spirit. It was no longer necessary after you had come again and become accustomed to the change of the light and power of this realm.

Why do the angels sing in harmonic tones? What does that do? It helps them to connect to me upon my Throne. It also helps to not be distracted by those around them. There is a frequency of tone and light that must be reached for the full experience. Each of these 3^rd estate souls are taught and prepared for what will come in the future as they prepare to be called and chosen to become 4^th estate.

What is the spinning galaxy above the Throne? It is the galaxy in which you exist, in a real time, actual visual, where all things are made known. I the Lord see what is before me always, and the heavens are laid open all around. You cannot see but it is below you and on both sides as well. It is beautiful and mighty to see the creations of the Father, and all glory is to Him.

The Lord showed me that there were innumerable worlds He created through the Father, and all will someday have a destiny like this earth if they fill the measure of their creation.

Why is the Adversary allowed to come to the Throne and not some lower sphere? Does this not create an unclean environment? The Lord said that dark beings are allowed to come under the direction of the Shahophalim, [Edit] These dark spirits are in a shield of sorts, that only allows the Lord to interact with them. They are as relieved to leave as you are to see them go, but they have no effect upon the light and glory of this place.

What is the water in the Garden? He said it was not water like the element we think of, yet it is the same feeling of water and creates a sense of place for creatures that abide in it. It can also be drunk like water and bring the same sense of refreshment and life that you feel in mortality, yet with more purity and satisfaction.

Lord, what were the words spoken between you and me during my first experience with you that I could not remember? [Edit] It was a beautiful moment between us. I think I was so emotional I couldn’t remember when I first wrote the experience.

What is an archangel exactly? The Lord said that among the 200 Great Ones are the Holy family, [Edit] they played a key role in organizing the House of Israel and the work required to save them in the House of our Father.

Is the Father’s Throne above Jesus’ Throne? Did I pass through a veil or another gate? The Lord said that it is a separate place above Kholo, right between the center of all creation and the gate to the [Edit]. Going there is like stepping through a door.

What did the Father say that I can’t remember? You will need to ask Him.

Does the Sacrament more fully prepare me to come to the Lord? The Sacrament contains the promises that you are doing to repent and have light poured upon you that you may be holy. You could come without it, but it is a good preface for your interaction with the Lord.

Should I still memorize my favorite Psalms? The Lord said that they are beautiful, and I could do that, or I could just write my own. They are helpful in fighting the Adversary and praising to add light and glory.